30 // video // this probably counts as wildly ecstatic

[ When you run for too long, you pull a muscle and can't carry on. That's not some groundbreaking observation, it's just the truth. And it's not only literal. It's not only physical.

Here's another thing that's true: everything is shit. This ties in to the first point, because when the world tells you that it's shit often and persuasively enough, it gets impossible to keep arguing. Way too many people have done way too many horrible things, Alex included, with and without the help of the mansion; even the person he should feel most sorry for is just a revenge-seeking nutter. When everything is shit, you shift your expectations.

Alex isn't sure why, but he feels more okay than he did before. Okay enough to act rather than be acted upon. Which, when everything is shit, is wonderful.

He opens up a feed. ]

Sof', d'you want a hand in the clinic?